I was supposed to compete this weekend. I had spent 4 months prepping myself to get on stage. I was determined, anxious, excited.. I was looking good. So happy with the package I was bringing for my WBFF debut.
This prep went by seemingly easy. I was eating lots of food, my body was changing, my weight was dropping easily and I had found my balance, or so I thought.
One thing that was keeping me on track is the amount of effort I was putting into my mindset work. I was meditating daily, waking up and sticking to my yoga practice in the mornings, making sure my rest days were filled with just that.. rest. I was really taking care of body and mind, and I felt like I had pretty much everything under control.
Up until my peak week. My week leading up to my competition was a disaster.
I got my bikini in that I had been waiting 4 months for and it didn’t fit. It was also falling apart, my tanning salon canceled my tan last minute because of a scheduling conflict with their tan girl.. and to top it all off I ended up getting food poisoning the day before my show. After checking in with my coach she suggested we push my debut back to June.
I was frustrated, angry, sad and overwhelmed all at the same time.. it sucked. I got so mad, feeling as though I had just wasted the last 4 months and that I had ruined all of my progress.
Not going to lie, I was in an absolutely horrible mood the entire weekend. Then I realized when things got tough I had completely stopped all of the things that had kept me balanced leading up to that week. I had stopped meditating, journaling and getting on my mat to practice. Just when I needed it the most.
I’m one of those “everything happens for a reason” people. You may not be able to see it right away. I certainly couldn’t.. but now, taking a step back and away from my emotions. I am so excited for June. I just gave myself an extra 2.5 months to work hard and bring my absolute best package to the stage.
Old me would have gotten discouraged and stopped training, isolated herself and ruined her progress by eating a ton of food for comfort. But I’m not her anymore which was a HUGE win for me already. This setback only pushed me to go harder, it made me hungry for the competition. It made me want to be the best version of myself.
Setbacks can be good. They cause you to stop, take a look at things and re-evaluate your approach. Learn from them and